Romans 8:26
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.
I was weary. I knew I was weary. The task (again) felt too heavy to bear. I felt selfish for being weary. I felt selfish for wanting to have my time free for me. So I didn't ask. I didn't even consider it. Besides, how can you change the laws of justice which would have seemed like the only way to change the circumstances that brought two little ones into our home, yet again. And who was I to complain? I was free. I was not the one locked up. We said we'd help. We wanted to help. I wanted to help. But yes, I was weary.
So we went to court today, thinking it was all just a formality, that nothing was really changing. We'd go home with the girls and wait until May when Mom could rejoin them. But then a miracle. I just keep imagining the 2022 version of the New Testament prison doors being opened and the prisoner walking out. After the petition was made, the judge looked at the phone where Mom's voice would periodically be heard and asked, "And how do you feel about that?" How did she feel about that? How would anyone feel about freedom? About grace? About motherhood free from chains and guards and locked doors?
It wasn't about me. It was never about me. But God heard. God heard Holy Spirit's groans on my behalf. When I didn't even know I could ask. I didn't know how to pray. In my unbelieving weakness, Holy Spirit made a simple yet impossible request knowing that it was made to the only One who knows no impossible requests. And it was granted.
All praise be to God!
Ephesians 3:20
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.
