If I should speak

One day, when My Story (Big Daddy Weave) came on the radio, I said to Victor, "This is your song!" Now, whenever he hears the song he asks me, "Is this my song, Mommy?" Yes, yes, it is, Victor.

If I told you my story

You wold hear Hope that wouldn't let go

And if I told you my story

You would hear Love that never gave up

And if I told you my story

You would hear Life, but it wasn't mine

From a birth mom who loved you so dearly that she wouldn't give up on you even in the midst of an abusive relationship, without sufficient support to encourage her, and knowing that she just couldn't care for another child. She had hope for you. She had love for you.

To our family where we refuse to give up, no matter how difficult it gets. Who will always love you, whether or not you are able to consistently return that love.

And today, it was these words that stuck out to me:

If I should speak then let it be

Of the grace that is greater than all my sin

Of when justice was served and where mercy wins

Of the kindness of Jesus that draws me in

Oh to tell you my story is to tell of Him

This is my prayer for not just Victor but for every member of my family, for every friend of mine who calls Jesus their Lord and Savior. This is my prayer for myself. In a day when divisiveness and disparaging remarks are considered normal, may our speech, our lives, our actions reflect only grace, justice, mercy, kindness, and Jesus.

Psalm 19:14

May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing to you, 

O Lord, my rock and my redeemer.