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He walked in the room with book in hand.  "Mom, I think we should all read chapters 6 and 7 and then we should talk about what it means for Victor."  He placed the book on the table in front of me.

I smiled.  "Do you know this is the same book I was reading with the younger kids when Eden decided to pray her specific prayer?"  He didn't.

So we all took our turns reading the selected portions of The 40 Day Prayer Challenge by Mark Batterson.  For some of us, it was a second reading but a good review.  The theme of these two chapters is tangible faith.  If you are praying for something, do something to signify your faith.

And then we came together to talk about it.  If we believe that we are to pray for Victor's sight (and we do), then what are we going to do to represent our faith? We decided to buy him a Bible, not a Braille Bible, but a written version, believing that some day he will read it.  Several of us in our immediate family and a dear friend as well, keep hearing the number "16" and Eden, in true faith, has suggested a date, June 1 (Of 2029? Who knows?). Oh, how I'd love for Victor to have a driver's license!

There could be all kinds of theological discussion about whether or not we should ask for Victor's sight.  We believe we should.  We believe that our loving Heavenly Father desires to give good gifts to His children.  We know that He longs for each one of us to be healed and whole.  We also believe that good can come out of any circumstance and that often it is in our weakness that He is most glorified. How do we reconcile the two, seemingly opposing beliefs? We don't need to. That's not our job. We know that Victor will be healed.  Period. Whether that happens here on earth or in Heaven is not for us to decide or worry about. We ask, we believe in God's goodness no matter the answer to our request, and we watch God get the glory in everything.

Please don't get me wrong, this is not to say that we don't have days, even moments, of grief over Victor's blindness. This is a club I did not ask to join. But I could plan out every single moment of every single day and still God's ways are not my ways. My full trust is in His ways. Some people have placed their faith only in that which they can explain. How sad because there's so much that cannot be explained or rationalized. And what do you do when that which you've rationalized and planned, falls apart on itself? Putting my faith in a loving God who wants the best for me, One who has the whole universe in His hands, sounds far more comforting to me.

God is good. All the time. All the time. God is good.  Amen.